Heath Journal: March 11-??

March 11
Evening blood sugar: 207
The intention is to do a Whole30, then do a *real* reintroduction phase.  I also want to start adding some gentle exercise.  I have a doctor's appointment in about four weeks (April 7), which is motivating.  I hate to go to the doctor when nothing is really different.

How I'm feeling right now:  bloated, achy.  Definitely symptoms of inflammation.  Skin is dry and even cracking in a few spots.  I have those weird scabby spots on my back and upper arms that went away completely when I did Whole30 last time.

Emotionally, I'm numb and disinterested -- depressed, I guess.  Having a hard time motivating to do anything.  I've taken two days off just because I felt I needed a break, and that means I won't have any income next week after the car cost comes out of my Lyft earnings.  In fact, I'll probably end up paying about $50.

What I'm longing for -- a tidy, simple home, organized and thriving work, some beauty and some joy.  Honestly, nothing has changed but the food, so I really think that's at the center of all the issues.  Driving makes it hard to eat well (but not impossible -- I've actually pulled it off a couple of days!).  I've been living on drive-through food that I hate on so many different levels.

Tomorrow I'll start taking my weight and blood sugar measurements in the morning.  I'd also like to push myself to do my weekend routine, even if I have to do it rrrrrrreeeeeaaaaaalllllllyyyyyy slowly, just to start some positive momentum.

UPDATE 12/28/17.  Same.  Except I'm not driving anymore, so I'm not doing drive-through food so much, but the holiday feasting and in-between nibbling and snacking has me feeling really sick and sluggish and not like myself at all. Willing to be productive, but not able, except to knit.  So I've done a lot of knitting, lately!

Stay tuned.  Something could be changing.

UPDATE 11/4/18.  Oh, good grief. A year later, and everything is the same, except my blood sugar has more than doubled.   Most days I start out at 300-some, and at some point my sugar actually goes over 500.  Yes, that's dangerous. Onward...dammit.