So...what does Sabbath mean this week?

This has been a successful, revolutionary week -- sort of. I lost five pounds, I got up earlier than I have in months, I stayed transparent, I freaked out a couple of times, and I failed on a couple of things, too.

I'm loving the fact that I have seven weeks to get all of this right. So here comes Tuesday (my Sabbath) -- what do I need?

My apartment is still a mess -- I would love to get it cleaned up. I think I have the energy, I don't think I'd get "stuck," and it would be beautiful. On the other hand, tomorrow is also the first staff meeting in Lent -- MHM staff meetings are very spiritual, and I'd like to go through Lent with the staff community -- so I'd hate to miss it, and if I attend the meeting I won't get going on my cleaning up until after 11:00 in the morning.

I have been working pretty hard (in great part because I've had so much more energy!), and the weather is going to be beautiful tomorrow. I wonder if what I really need is to head downtown and go to a movie, read a book...get lost and relax BIG. I do hate the thought, though, of coming home to a yucchy place.

I wonder if I can make cleaning my place into a real Sabbath -- make it feel like adding to beauty instead of slogging through obligation.

Maybe -- if I do the things I really *want* to do (set up my desk the way I want it, maybe decorate it...) and avoid the things I really *don't* care about. I could throw some laundry in while I'm downstairs for staff meeting. It would be lovely to change my bedding and make up my bed.

Maybe I could beautify my home most of the day, then go downtown in the evening. I would have to be careful not to stay out toooooo late, so I don't set myself up for failure on Wednesday morning.....yes, I think that's an answer.

One more question -- do I take a vacation from my Lenten disciplines? I'm kinda leaning toward it. Not a license to binge...but freedom from counting calories, and maybe some fun food at the movie, etc. Let go of the three-hour morning routine, especially since the whole day I'll be doing that stuff..........yes. That's what I'll do. I'll know after trying it once whether it works or whether it sabotages me.

Okay. Got it. Blogging is, as Martha Stewart would say, "a good thing."